Christmas Pictures!

No more appointments till the Transfer!

Time is going by so slowly and I haven't even started the dreadful 2 week wait!  I was given great news today at the clinic, that next Friday will be the big Transfer Day!!!  Yay!  This is not as cool as you'd think.  I am glad it's on Friday because then I'll have three days of bed rest, but it's hard to risk the pain we will feel if it doesn't work.  My mother is always telling me to think positive and I really try!  I am always the one that thinks of the silver lining, but this is hard.  I like to think that the 5 embies are all bundled up in the freezer together and they're all safe.  What if it's my whom!  What if I am uninhabitable!  I am determined to prove myself wrong though!  The pregnancy test is set for Feb. 12th!  It's a Sunday, which is good because last time I was at work and had to try to keep it together.

Shannon lent me a fun book to keep me distracted.  It's called "The Bigger the Better the Tighter the Sweater".  Its 21 funny stories from different women talking about beauty, body image, and other hazards of being female.  Lots of boobie talk!  :-)

Keeping distracted is what's on the agenda!

Moving Forward

This has been a tough four months of waiting.  In October it was a big surprise when the doctor said that I wasn't pregnant and that I'd have to wait a month till the next transfer.  After all this, I haven't know how to feal...I felt defeated, embarassed and lost a lot of hope.  What has helped me through this was that I knew that this wasn't going to be the last chance for us.  We have 5 frozen babies and hopefully next time we would get our happy ending.  After all the stimulation my body wasn't ready, but the hard part of all this has to be the waiting.  I had to take November off, then the doctor said that I couldn't have the transfer in December because of the holidays....Ugh!  I can understand the holidays, but it was still a big bummer that we couldn't transfer the embryos then.  Now its January and I should have the transfer in a couple of weeks.  This time we are going to go with a more natural cycle.  No ICKY, PAINFUL Progesterone shots in the rear!  In fact, I will only need one shot at the end!  Awesome!  I was out numbered on the number of embryos to put in last time, so this time we will put in 2!  Maybe twins...
Thanks to all my loving family and friends!  Especially to my loving husband for dealing with my emotions and my mom for all her suport as well!