I am suppressed!

Yay! I am suppressed! I have 8 follicles on the right side and 11 on the Left! It just means I didn't ovulate and they're getting ready to make lots of eggs! I could have the trigger shot as soon as 10/10 and the retrieval could be 10/13 which is awesome! I'd then have the transfer 5 days later!  Things are moving forward and I am freaking out!  Now that we've invested in all of this, what if it doesn't work?  Ahhh! I try my best not to think about it, but it's very hard.


Danielle was awesome last night.  She gave me a "drive by shooting"!  We had plans for dinner and she was kind enough to give me my shot in the car before hand.  Again, she did wonderful!  No pain!  It was good practice for her since I am going to start to have 3 shots a day on starting Saturday!  Yuck!  And she's kind enough to help Rob out on the weekends.  Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

Giggles and shots!

This weekend Rob and I spent at home relaxing for the first time in a very long time. Since we didn't really want to drive to Shannon's to give me the shot, and Danielle was at the OSU game, the only other option I had was to have Rob give me the shot. I asked and he said YES! I don't think either of us believed that he said yes! I got the shot ready and said I'd lay down on the couch (I usually stand while Shannon does it) I figured it would be easier for Rob. He pinched my stomach and I can't remember who or why, but we started giggling! It was awful! He poked me and because we were giggling he pulled it out. It was like he bumped into me.....so now he had to do it again for real. Anyways, he did awesome after we stopped giggling! He did so well that he can do it on the weekends now! Needles freak him out but he's being a great husband! I love him lots!

And so I begin the journey to becoming a pincushion.

I have a knack for making something so tiny, be so big, in the hopes that when it actually doesn’t get huge, I feel relieved.   Today I had that feeling.  I was in the frame mind that the needle was going to be so painful that it was making me nauseous.  Even though I know it’s not going to be that bad.  Shannon was so great!  It wasn’t painful at all.  The procedure itself wasn’t at least.  After, if was just a little uncomfortable, but very, very tolerable!  Again, I felt so relieved!!! :-)

Rob was even getting into the class, which for him is big!  He hates needles, but he came to support and check things out.  Even though he does not have to go through all the pain like I am, he’s still by my side.  Ahhh...

I can’t thank Shannon enough for taking the time in her busy schedule to tag along with us.  She did great and I didn’t really feel anything!  I guess I did jump a little, but I think it also had to do with her arm jabbing my stomach! 

Overall, I wouldn’t say it was enjoyable, but it was most definitely tolerable!!  I am saying that as I am electing to put my body through menopause and the symptoms are soooooo wonderful, not!  I’ve already had my first hot flash, and I only took the shot at 7.  Oh well!  Baby here we come!

Here's all the medicine I'll be taking!  :-)  WOW!!!

I am going to miss...

Your love, snuggles and great personality.  You were my first fur baby and life with out you won't be the same.  I love you lots and I will remember you always.

IVF Shoot “Em Up!

I am so apprehensive about the shot part of the protocol, that I don’t know what I am more worried about, the shots or not getting the ultimate gift of life.  How sad, pathetic and depressing is that?  How could I be so worried about becoming a pincushion when the needles are tiny-tiny?  It’s because they are my Kryptonite! 

After spending a whopping, $2,300 on Monday, I got my two bags full of supplies from the pharmacy!  It’s all becoming so real!  Please tell me how medicine that seems to be used more and more for infertility issues, still costs so much? 

The pharmacist was very nice and went through each medication with me, but I am still grateful that we have an injection class to go back over things.   Listening to him talk was like listening to Charlie Brown’s Parents…Mauh, Muah, Muah!   I have my first shot on the 19^th., and I get nauseous just thinking about it.  What happenstance, that my class and first injection fall on the same day! 

Also, why are prenatal pills so big?  I have such a hard time taking little pills that I am always afraid I am going to choke and shoot the pill out my nose!  Wouldn’t that be a pretty sight, no, not really!

Wish me lots of luck!!!

Birth Control...really?

This may seem backwards, but today I start my first day on Birth Control!

It seems silly because -- I am trying to get pregnant!  After talking with my doctor and doing some research, it seems that birth control pills before the IVF treatment cycle has been shown to decrease your risk of Ovarian Hyperstimulation or ovarian cysts and may even improve the odds of success.  Another possible reason is to let your doctor detect ovulation easier.

This is great news because Colleen had really, really, really bad Hyperstimulation!  I believe she said the doctor stopped counting eggs retrieved at 45!  That is a crazy amount and hyper stimulation is very painful!!!  What they consider a normal amount of eggs 15-20, and even then only 8-10 usually fertilize.

This week I start BC and Thursday we have our 1st of 2 IVF Classes.  Excitement, Nervousness, Emotional, Anxious are great words to describe what I am feeling!  Mostly it's about the shots, but I've been told they're not to bad, Ugh. I might be able to even give them to myself, but that's not likely and Rob can't even look at a needle without panicking!  Anyways, back to the good stuff!  I've started my first medication - so I get to check that off my list on the path to baby!

On a side note!  This past weekend myself, my mom and Maddy went back to school shopping.  We found some great outfits for Maddy and also had a blast cornering mom into getting a new outfit for her spelt body!  I am also looking forward to this weekend with the family!  We are going to Sun River to celebrate NeeNee's life.

Have a great short week!